Heartbreaking

From the time when I was 7 months pregnant up until now, I have been a member of a few "expecting moms" message boards here online. Well, just over the past few weeks there have been a number of babies who have passed away. One little boy was diagnosed with Leukemia when he was 5 or 6 months old, and within a week of the diagnosis, he had passed away. Then there was a beautiful little girl who passed away just a few days ago, who was only 5 months old. The cause of her death is unknown and is being looked into. There, sadly, are other stories such as these, but it is these two little angels that my heart just breaks for. Everytime I read the blog that the little girl's parents are writing, I break down and cry. I just cannot imagine what they are going through, nor do I ever want to.

Sure, we have had some hard times with Emma's health issues, but boy do I feel like a jerk when I complain after reading Maddie's and Ben's stories :( I am a Christian and a firm believer that God has everything happen for a reason, but things like these seemingly senseless deaths really makes me wonder how such a compassionate God could do that to such innocent babies. I know we aren't meant to understand everything God does, but the deaths of innocents is completely incomprehensible to me. I am holding Emma a little tighter and longer now, being more patient, and just enjoying every little moment of hers, because if, God forbid, something should happen to her, I would want to have no regrets about how I spent my time with my sweetie pie.