No Go

Today the company Nick has been interviewing with finally contacted him and let him know that they have selected someone else for the position. Needless to say he's super depressed and just really needs some good strong prayers and guidance, and so I would appreciate your continued thoughts and prayers. Thanks

Depression

I am coming to any of you who ever read my blog in a state of desperation tonight. Still no word on the job-front for Nick and I can see that he's really losing hope and faith in his situation and life in general. It kills me to hear him say that other than me and Emma, life is a total disappointment to him and he doesn't see why he should try at anything anymore. I am so worried that he's going to do something impulsive that would hurt himself, and plus, his worrying and anxiety is really taking a toll on me as well.

You don't know how much I want to see him happy, but I think I have yet to see him totally happy ever since we first met. He talks about how he doesn't care about his job and doesn't care if he gets fired (which I can understand to a point because they treat him like crap there), however, and I'm not saying this to try and make it about me, but when he says that it makes me feel like he doesn't care about me or Emma because if he were to get fired we would be screwed with no income, healthcare, etc. I have asked God soooo many times why Nick? Why can't he get a break? He's a good, honest hard worker who never is given a good break and I just don't understand God's reasoning behind this. I know that he has his reasons for why he does everything, and that we're not always meant to know this reasoning, but damn it I get mad when I see my husband just feeling more and more depressed and he can't seem to find happiness at all.

I can only continue to pray for God to help us out and to give Nick a chance in a new job role with a new company, because I think until he can get a job somewhere where his work is valued and he's compensated more for what he does, then he will continue to be depressed about life and I don't want that, especially since this should be one of the happiest times in our lives (married a year and getting ready to have our first baby). Please just pray for him and for God to hear our prayers. Feeling like we need a miracle right now.

Feelings of Doubt

Nick had his final interview with the company on Friday and was optimistic at first. However, the more he thought about it and talked about it, the more pessimistic he became and has finally concluded that the company did not seem interested in him and that he will not get a job offer. They said that they will let him know probably Monday, Tuesday at the latest. I have tried to encourage him to think positively (easier said than done, I know!) but he remains woefully doubtful. Guess we will see tomorrow or Tuesday. I just can't tell you guys how much I hope he gets this position and how long and hard I have been praying about it. I'm afraid that if he doesn't then he will be more depressed than ever about his work situation and life in general, and maybe this sounds selfish, but I can only try so hard/long to build him back up because I sure don't need the stress right now of worrying about him while I'm 8 months pregnant. I would appreciate it if you would continue to say prayers that he's offered the position and that things turn out good for us for once :) Will let you know when he hears anything....

Last Interview???

Well today Nick has his (hopefully) final interview with the company he's been working with for the past few weeks! We doubt we'll know anything until early next week and so I'll update everyone as soon as I can, but won't be back on the computer until Sunday as we're celebrating our anniversary this weekend. Please keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer that this works into a new job and opportunity for us! Thank you!!!

Is This It?

Well we have a busy weekend coming up! First and foremost it is our one year anniversary on Sunday so on Friday we're going back to Grand Island to spend the night with Nick's folks and then Saturday we're going to the Stuhr museum, staying in a hotel, and going out for dinner :) We really didn't want to go far this year since I'm going to be about 6 weeks from my due date and just in case something happens! However, we are both looking forward to it and think it'll be fun!

Then the second big thing happening this week is another interview for Nick with the same company he's been interviewing with for a few weeks! The HR guy called Nick yesterday and was wondering if he would be available later this week for an interview with their board of directors if they wanted to interview him. Of course he said yes and so now he has an interview at 3:00 p.m!!!!! This will be his fourth interview including 2 phone interviews and so we're thinking that if he's the one they are going to pick for the job, he may find out Friday! We are trying not to get excited or think about it too much, but I have been praying every night that this would work out for us and that Nick could finally be given a break as it seems like nothing ever works out for him. So please keep your fingers crossed for us and I will let you know when we hear anything!

Phone Interview #2

Still no job offer from anyone, however, yesterday while Nick was in the doctor's office the company he is wanting to get on with (and has interviewed with twice) called him asking him if he would be available for another phone interview this week! So of course I could tell that he was excited (but trying not to show it). The HR woman said that next week they would be doing callbacks, or something of that sort, so we are just keeping our fingers crossed that this second phone interview goes good and that he's really in the running for the position!!!!!!

So today at noon is when he has his phone interview, and I will let you know if anything significant comes of it :)

No News Is.....???

Well Nick had his interview this past Thursday and he seemed really down afterwards because he didn't think it went as well as he was hoping. Mind you, he is always really hard on himself so I had to kind of take what he said about it with a grain of salt because I think he really does underestimate himself and his abilities sometimes. So after the interview was over the company said that they would be contacting people within the next week or 2 one way or another (if he did or didn't make the cut), and if he did, then the next step is an interview with the Board of Directors of the company, which he thinks would suck because this is a family owned company and thus it would probably be the family he would be interviewing with.

So as of right now there is no news to report, and I'm wondering if the old addage "No news is good news" could hold true here because he's just waiting on that rejection letter in the mail, but as of right now there's not been one! We are just going to keep our figers crossed and keep praying that this works out!!!

On His Way!

Nick is on the way to his interview right now so this is just a quickie post! Again, please just pray that this is THE opportunity and that he's offered a position! I know how badly he wants this and how much it would mean to him and I think I want it to work out just as badly as he does! I will post an update again when I get the chance to let the blogger world know how everything went for him! Thanks for your thoughts and prayers!!!!

The Results Are In....

This morning when I got up I had a voicemail from the hospital with the results of my glucose tolerance test yesterday. The results: all was normal and I don't have gestational diabetes :)

Thanks for the prayers for my health! Now if only the job situation would work out for Nick I would be the happiest girl ever :)