Musings on June

I can't believe that June is about to come to an end!  This past Friday we got back from our vacation with my folks in South Dakota, and boy was it great to get out of Omaha for a week!  We did everything from visiting the Badlands, the Black Hills, Flintstone Park, Custer State Park, riding the 1880 Train, horseback riding, visiting Mt. Rushmore, and many many more things!  Emma was such a trooper!  The first day we drove halfway to Hill City, which happened to be Mitchell, and we visited the Corn Palace, swam, and just relaxed.  She did pretty good on the drive, considering how long we had to be in the car and how boring riding can get, no matter how many Elmo dvd's and toys you bring!  On the drive home last Friday, we drove the full 8.5 hours and she did A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.  I was so proud of her!

Then this week it has been a matter of getting back into the groove here at home and getting all of the vacation crap put away :)  Yesterday I had a phone interview for a temporary position that sounded good, and then today I got called for an interview on this coming Tuesday for another position that sounds like it could be a good one.  We are keeping our fingers crossed that something works out.  We're not needing the money, but if I do get a job, then all of that money would be going towards our mortgage so that we can lower it and have a better chance of selling it before we have to retire ;)  Anyhow, I know God will lead me down the path that he has planned for us, so I have no worries! 

Now, here's just a taste of what our vacation was like :)  Enjoy!

Thoughts on Life

A blog I aboslutely love to read is by a woman I went to high school with.  She recently (okay, 2 months ago) gave birth to a beautiful little girl named Blythe.  One of the reasons I love her blog is because she writes so eloquently and creatively, a trait that never fails to grab my attention.  Another reason is because of the beautiful baby girl of hers, and getting to see her grow and change!  You see, when I had Emma, I ended up struggling with post partum depression for a few months before realizing that my "baby blues" were something more and that it wasn't something I could take care of myself.  Therefore, I feel like I ended up not really appreciating the first few months of her life as much as I could have.  It was really hard living so far from home with a newborn and a husband who had to work long hours, and so I tended to just get swallowed up in a sadness that blinded me to the beautiful little miracle that God had entrusted us with. 

Looking back, this deeply saddens me and I can't help but feeling like I have lost out on some precious time that I'll never get back.  I think maybe that's why I enjoy Kelsey's blog so much.  Because I can see her little lady growing and thriving, and this really puts a smile on my face, because it helps me to remember things about Emma's first months that I thought I had forgotten.  Also, I am reminded at how much I L.O.V.E. being a mom, and how I feel I am ready for another little one.  I have decided that after I do have our next baby, that I will probably start some anti-depressants very soon after that so that I can really focus on and enjoy the new baby and his/her interactions with Emma, rather than plummeting into a crippling depression from the horomone levels being totally out of whack.  Anyhow, I guess this post was kind of a reminder to myself to enjoy every minute I have with her and to remember just how precious life is!